Flux – continuous change.
For me: Anxious. Unease.
Right now. I feel things changing. I feel the need to change things. Mix things up. Decisions to be made, big decisions, life changing decisions, decisions that *may* (probably not, but they feel like they will) affect the rest of my life.
Do you ever get that feeling when you just know your whole body, mind and soul has to change but you don’t know how and you’re so afraid of making the wrong choice. So you just keep things just as is in the hope that they’ll come good again and will settle down. Flux.
Why can’t it just be easy to make important life decisions? Why can’t I be the type of person who just knows what they want in life. Sets a direction and sticks with it. Regardless of the weather and conditions.
Last night I woke up at 2 am. Couldn’t get back to sleep, especially when I started watching you tube and Instagram stories – how good are they? Got up, made a cuppa and sat on the lounge. Just sat, trying to work out my life purpose, goals. Feeling my feelings, trying to make some decisions.
I should get up and do something productive like blog, or read or draw something. Or hey, maybe I should finish that course that I started 6 months ago? The internet is useful for insomniacs. I have listed a whole heap of things on ebay and gumtree to sell, after last weekend starting a big spring clean out.
Thinking about buying some new furniture or a piece of art to spruce up my place a bit – I stumbled on these beautiful colourful, aboriginal pieces, I would love to have just one like these in my home.
How do you make important life decisions? Are you the type of person who just knows? Goes with the flow? Do you write a pros and cons list?
Do I even sound sane? Who really knows. What is sanity. Is anyone sane? Are we all crazy in the coconut?
